Yesterday, I didn't want to do my workout. I had been up since 4 something in the morning due to clinicals and I had at least 3 hours of homework. I just wanted to go home and take a nap. But instead I spent some time wrestling with kohl and watching a movie with Dustin. Than I sat down and did my 3 hours of homework and decided it was time to workout. I think what helped me workout yesterday was that I read my mom's comment on my previous blog and I didn't want to disappoint her. Plus I didn't want to disappoint myself. I knew that if I didn't workout I'd be mad at myself later. I made a commitment and I am going to stick with it.
Everyday I count calories. I think calories should be a curse word. I HATE CALORIES. I hate counting them. I miss just being able to eat whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted and stay thin. Now I have to look at everything before I eat it. I question whether I should eat it. BAH! Calorie counting sucks! But it is effective. I find that it tells me a story and writing down what I am eating holds me accountable. I put it in black and white and reality stares me in the face. I feel good when I see all the healthy things I am eating.
However, the temptations are everywhere. Right now there is a Pepsi in my fridge. It has been there since day one and everyday I look at it and I want it. But I close the door and walk away. I tried to get my husband to drink it. I even gave it to him but than when I did, I kept looking at it wishing it was back in the fridge. Because everyday I walk away from it I feel like I am beating the challenge. I am resisting the craving and temptation. Needless to say, for some reason, Dustin didn't drink it. He put it back in the fridge. Maybe to taunt me, but I'm glad it's back in there.
This diet thing is hard. But I keep reminding myself of the reasons I am doing it. My main ones keep coming back to me. I want to be healthy for me, for kohl, for my family. I want to feel good about myself and I want to prove to myself that I can do it. Writing this blog is helping me remember that. I'm glad I have this blog and I know several of my family members are reading it. It's a challenge to me knowing others are checking in to see how I am doing. I don't want to let you down either!
I got my exercise in today, 4 days in a row and I am going to the gym tomorrow as well. Week 2 is almost gone and I am still going strong! I can't wait to see what the scale says on Monday! Til next time! Casey